The crazy dreams just keep coming. The first one was a new Netflix show called Batman staring Alex Ho as the Dark Knight. In this dream, Paul F. Tompkins was a child pornographer and Batman (Alex Ho) had to stop him from fucking and filming young children. This was a pretty scary dream, and I'm sure Paul F. Tompkins isn't really a child pornographer but boy oh boy did he make a terrifying one in my dream.
My next dream took place at my old house in Glendale. I had an agent named Gustavo who wanted to help me change schools, but my cousin and her kids were over and so was my dad's friend Doug Reed, so I had to keep hiding Gustavo in different closets so no one would find out that I was trying to switch schools. For some reason, my clothes kept disappearing in this dream and my mom kept getting mad at me for being nude. Throughout all of this, Addie just sat in the living room alone and played Banjo Kazooie.
I should mention, I never dreamed in California. Like at all. These dreams is a totally Chinese thing. I don't like it. I wish I could go back to never dreaming, that was much better.
I decided to start this morning a little productive. I do the dishes, do the laundry, clean my apartment a bit, and put my blackout curtain back up. Shawn calls me again to ask about my decision for the school in Nanjing. I ask for more time. He says they can't give me more time. So I say no. I don't like the pressure to sign so quickly. It makes me uncomfortable and makes me feel like I am getting scammed. Maybe that's dumb though. Anything would maybe be better then the situation I am in now. But I don't want to leave one bad thing for another one. I want to find a good thing. Plus, what if this Sakey stuff works out. If I dated Sakey here, I might really end up really liking Gaochun. Sakey and I can walk in the park together and hold hands, or just have hot steamy passionate sex all day. I could live with that. And the pay is better here and Gaochun is super cheap.
But Gaochun is all I have complained about for months. Isn't stupid to think it will change now?
I ordered some fried rice from the place Peter loves so much and then took another nap. I have really been sleeping a lot. In this dream, I was taking classes at one college but I wanted to take classes at a different nearby college so I snuck in to take classes there. I got caught while moving a table under a window to break in and then cried a whole bunch. Some of these dreams meanings are very confusing, but some of them are just incredibly obvious.
I have another call with Shanghai to lock down my interview for Monday. It's locked down. I think I'll have to cancel go-karting. Damn, I'm so sorry Sakey.
I decide to read my artist journal that I have been writing in for the past month. Most of it is complaining about China and groveling about missing Mitchell. It feels silly to read me missing Mitchell so much, I'm totally over her now. I can't believe I was stuck on her for so long. Sakey is my one and only. Mitchell was so last year, I don't know what I ever saw in her anyways. Those big beautiful eyes and that wild dark hair. Those sweet lips. And she was so tall. Just a beautiful beautiful woman. But I'm over her now, no more feelings there. Thank god. Thinking about Mitchell all the time was getting exhausting.
I invite Fernanda to go with me to Shanghai on Monday. She says no, it's too expensive because she is planning on going to Beijing next week. I tell her I was planning on going to Bejing next week so we can maybe do that together. She says she is going with her friend Anna but I am more than welcome to join them. It will be nice to travel with friends for once.
At work, I ask Josie about getting my tax forms so I can start sending money to the United States. When I mentioned to Shawn that the school was paying me in cash, he said this was a very bad sign and that there is a high chance the school isn't paying my taxes ("You've got to be careful with those smaller schools, bro. You are my brother.") Josie tells me to set up a Chinese Paypal account and that I should be able to transfer my fund using this. I can try to figure it out when I get home, but I am bad at some computers so I'm not super hopeful about that. I also think it's probably a good idea to make sure my taxes get paid, I don't want to get arrested for tax evasion in China.
I also mention to Josie that I would like to go to the dentist.
"I will take you to the hospital and you can get your teeth washed next week."
Great. I also ask about going to pick up my passport. Josie says we can stop and pick it up after we go-kart on Monday. I still haven't cancelled this yet. I really need to figure out my next plan of action.
After work, I message Sakey and ask if she would like to go and get hot pot with me after school this week. She says yes.
I'm gonna do it. I'm going to have a Chinese girlfriend.
I didn't take any photos today, so here is a picture of Mr. Wu mixing dirt with powder to make fish bait.
